it sure feels like a dream. a dream i wouldnt want to step out of. like duh who would want to right? 

i took leave on fri. to go greet the boys at imm for a fanmeet. what came later was totally unexpected. considering there were only 150 lucky fans to be able to get their autographs. and a whopping 300 fans turned up. some queued overnight. some came freaking early. like 9am ? and i came around 1pm. and i got IN! 

seriously. cant believe my luck. 

then came the even I CANT BELIEVE WHAT JUST HAPPENED! 

me and my fren, MAI. have the same bias surprisingly for 2pm. and ONLY 2PM. others we have completely different ones. and thing is. I TOTALLY GOT LUCKY AND GOT MY CHANANANANA! 

 they were all sitting down. here's the order from where i came up the stage. LEE JUNHO, JANG WOOYOUNG, HWANG CHANSUNG, NICKHUN, KIM JUNSU and last was OK TAECYEON! 

My fren and her sis was before me and had to stop at the first one that was empty. and that happened to be mr ok! then her sis got the second one, mr vocal with zero presence! haha. junsu! and i had to stop at my bias! HOW LUCKY! 

before getting on stage. i was like pulling my fren's sis, amirah. i didnt want to go up so fast. and didnt expect her sis was pulling her from the front as well. so we both were pulling her from opposite directions! ahahaha. sorry ameeeeerah! 

im sorry that i was so eyeing chansung the whole time up stage that i merely glanced at junho and wooyoung but didnt greet them or said any hi or hellos! so sorry! i didnt even bothered to look at junsu or taec while chananana was signing cos i was just eyeing him like seriously lookin at him ONLY! then while he was signing. i slipped out my lollipop i bought for him. and placed it on the table.

guess i was shy. like YA I SERIOUSLY WAS! man it was my first giving a prezy to a guy can! face to face somemore. then he and his big eyes looked up and asked, " Is this for me?" in perfect english but with his cute accent. god, seriously. i was. just starstruck there and then. then i went " ya! for you! " then i cant rmb what happened. i dont know if he thanked me or did i thank him. all i rmb was telling him to come back to singapore again and that too i dont know if he understood cos he went like" ah?" bending forward and i repeated it again. then before leaving the stage i said bye to taec and he said "adieus" . 

i dont know why but 2 pm time tho we could ask for anything and they would gladly oblige, i must be crazy to not even ask for a handshake from any one of them! i was seriously STUPID TO THE MAX! gosh i hate myself for that. oh well. im still starstruck after what happened on fri.

GOD IS REALLY AWESOME! for taking care of me! for giving me this wonderful chance of a lifetime! for giving me the courage to take the lollipop out to even give it to him! and for opening my mouth! to talk! it really is an achievement as compared to that time beast's autograph session. i was just tongue-tied! 

okay shall update more on the concert a little later. adieus for now! 

 i feel it is such a burden on them as im the odd one out. like ALWAYS. it has always been this way like wherever i go.  sad eh ? (oh hans why so emo)

not that i want to avoid it. but just dont want to feel unhappy while im there. suppressing everything all in. say something and change the atmosphere ? nope. not what i would want.

but when confronted with questions i cant answer to convince why certain things is or isnt so, im just so tired of explaining. 

cant i just be accepted the way i am? no whys can?  

i guess it is better this way. to meet less frequent. then it would be less burden on them and less for me to feel guilty. certain things i cant do and that would piss some of them off. so better to not be there at all,isnt it? 

and im so much happier now. thankfully with god's grace im happy like everyday at work. 

less expectation cos we are ordinary friens rather than good or close friends which would include having certain kind of expectation. lesser expectation lesser burden. 

  two- o- one- o! 

what is up with the number right ?! 

superbly superb year !! 

yest especially!!

13 August 2010! this date is staying in my tiny weeny brain for years to come! 

i couldnt scream any louder than i did yesterday night. 

at The Promontary !!

Great place! Great audience! Great company! Great view ! Superb performance! 

Gi Kwanggggg! Hi-yeommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!

all that overnighting. all the stickiness. all the humidity. all the smelly me. all the zombie panda me now. all the millipedes and crawlies crawling ard. 

totally worth it all!! just to hear. "hi everyone, i'm Gi Kwang!" for like 3 times( bet tts all he knew. so cute! ;ppppp) and to end it all " I love youuuuu" (awwwww. i love you tooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!)

it was the best after the k-pop concert since eons ago. (roughly 2 years ago back in nov 2008)  

and one of the regrets i had since june was not going to see their showcase. just their showcase which was de most important event like ever! and i didnt manage to get tixs to it. 

but just yest at 10pm, the regret has since vanished. into thin air. everything. just the whole 30 mins. made up for it. 

and the one i so badly wanted to hear. caught me by super surprise! i felt i should cry when i heard they were gonna sing my fav song from them. the one tt finally gt me into them. OASIS! ohmy freaking god. they were there. right infront of my panda-ed eyes. singing it. I FINALLY GET TO HEAR THIS SONG LIVE! 

omg. i totally thanked god for everything.

Seriously, GOD thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!

well, everything was chaotic at the begining.

but as their performance were up next, fans just unified and stayed tgt and joined hands so tt each of us could have a decent view to drool over the boys. thankfully we shouted to whoever who wanted to stand up in front and block our view. so we managed to be seated and get high tho perspiring like crazy.

 it was humid. anyone nt there cannot imagine how hard it was. Fasting. Thirsty. but being patient and hoping everything goes well was what i was feeling constantly throughout before the start of the concert.

the sun was scorching hot. we queued and waited for hours. it really paid off. but some did cut queue.DAMN THEM! 

they came like damn later can. and i overnighted. bloody shit them. i was so annoyed. was practically throwing daggers as i stared at them.but somehow they had shields behind their backs so it backfired. danggg. 

so anyway. Gi Kwang is so frigging cute and everything okay. all of them were sweating and while they had an interview before singing two more songs, they were asked by the mc which type of food is beast's fav.

and dongwoon. the adorkable maknae replied (as tho without thinking which he usually does), " Pepper crab" then leader dujun came forward and said "kimchi" instead. and the dorky maknae went to the back embarrassed and shy. omg. so cute right!

ahhh. this dongwoon ah. cute as hell. 

and gi kwang is super gorgeous in white. and i was practically shouting and screaming whenever it was his singing part. like siao woman i tell you. and the person infront kept looking at each other as i and my great company beside, just screamed like non-stop. can say constantly screaming! haha! 

he is as flawless in dancing as ever. charismatic stage presence as well as the rest of the members. the performance was just fantabulous and superb! totally rocked it cann! i sang along to all songs as i know their whole album songs. i love it all! like 2nd group to take my attention in all their songs after shinee can! 

but seriously. when they started sining oasis.  like my de most fav ballad song from them. this showcases their amazing voices plus jun hyung's amazing rapping skils! delicious !

 i felt i should cry but like what taemin said before on why when he get awards he has never cried once. that it was a happy moment. why should i cry. and i was just so into the songs. i just sang my heart out. plus my voice box out. it hurts after tt! my voice is okay abit but just the voice box hurts! hmm.

and i love dujun and gi kwang's moment. tho i dont really like him, but i do maybe abit more after his moment with my fav boy. hehe.

dang. on the way out, he was the only one we could see in the car! waving to us. then coming time, i only saw dongwoon at the window.

dangg. i guess. my gi kwang's shy? he has always been i guess. like me. shy-ster! hahaha

but seriously when they first came and did the rehearsals, his " hi everyone im ki kwang" just made me feel as tho i had food in my body alr! all energised! im serious. before that i was like.. oh man counting down to break fast time.  huh. so long more..? it was abt a few hrs before. his voice was just what i needed! so cute him and his poke-able glasses and his cap! so cutee! 

and oh! 4 minute did encore! Beast didnt ! ;((((( what is this! 

i'm soo looking forward to their new album! it's schedule for next month! Sept! when jay will be in singaporeeeeeeee month!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

two- o- one- o is such a happening year! im so loving you! 

i wonder who's next? i know they will keep flooding spore! 

meanwhile, my wallet will be experiencing DROUGHT! grrrrrr.

 LEE TAE MIN! Shinee's babyy! 

Saengil Chukha Hamnidaaaa! 

Happy 18th Birthday (korean age) uri maknae!  

aigoo our baby is growing up! 

Thankfully you still had ur shirt on for the latest album! Taeminnie ! Saranghamnida! 


So cute! School of rock dayss!

 when i first saw Teen Top, seeing the name alone. which was. the word TOP.

made me think of my most beloved legendary figure in history of korea's long-lasting boyband- SHINHWA. 

plus to the fact tt there were 6 members- my most fav no in the whole wide world. 

and most importantly. when i saw their pic on dongwannie's blog tt he wrote after posting their pic. it read " ANDY'S AMBITIOUS PROJECT" 

with tt unconsciously i went on to search more information on them. which agency there were from. and true enough! they were from Andy's. Top media! woot! they were created and trained by none other than Shinhwa's maknae, Andy Lee Sun ho! So proud of you! i bet eric hyung's over the moon! so are the rest of the members! 

and what's more is tt. they are really good. im not really a biased person. i need to see to believe kinda person. So even if all the related to shinhwa, but if there werent good, i still wouldnt like them. But again, it's from a legendary group's creation, they would surely choose the best! and true enough! 

just a day after they debuted, Japanese fans are setting up their fanclub and so are many other counties overseas. Even Japanese Mnet are interested to make them break into the Japanese market! woah. This proves their talent! and mind you, they just had a yr of training before they debuted! and this is their masterpiece! DAEBAK! 

i have always been on the lookout for those groups with teamwork and the newest ones tt caught my attention are Infinite and them! Young as they are 15-18 age range, yet the performance delivered was so powerful and impactful. i just love the togetherness! the clap part! 

im so happy when Huda told me she liked them! i know more will give their love towards them right? they are andy's fruit of labour and i can totally tell they have potential to make it big. Are they the ones i have been waiting for? the next Shinhwa ? Time will be the answer. 

oh and i was saying. they remind me of Shinhwa's 2nd album, Twinkling of Paradise (T.O.P). and here they performed it! 
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I hope they will grow and develop to be better artistes' and i hope more people will take interest in them! Teen Top Fighting!

and can i say how lucky they are? All the members have been said to be helping to promote and monitor their activities. They are soo so lucky to have Shinhwa to monitor them ! Eric hyung also helped! omg! what do i do with these amazing boys and their amazing friendship?? aigoo. <3333
On a side note, i cant wait for Eric to wrap up his military duties and comebackk! i toally miss him! and next should be Dongwannie! Pallii dorawa! 

Credit: source from mumuy.com

 im sorry if im so long-winded. and i donoe how many times i have posted this. 

but im ever so thankful to God. for everything now. 

now tt im older. wiser (i hope i am)

im ever so grateful for. *flashes back to 2006* 

where i first got to know shinhwa. for knowing them. has made my life all the more meaningful. 

im so thankful for knowing them. for God keeping them safe. and sound. and happy. 

and as im constantly keeping myself updated with kpop news. 

im always reading how. people either keep getting more fans. more famous. or they suddenly leave their group and there is no sound from them again. 

i was reading abt this person. he was from the first generation where kpop started having changes. where it changed history forever. up till now where the craze has taken the globe by storm. 
and to know. this person's stories. just made the singers from kpop industry especially all the more respected and loved. 

knowing that the fame and popularity they have now is really nt easy to comeby. 

to know that this person was very directly connected to formation of shinhwa. how hard he has work from then till now. and this just makes me so proud of my shinhwa hyungs. cos they are super awesome. 

right from their era. no other bands has come this far. which is an open news for everyone. 

and the fact that i am a shinhwa fan which means i was not from the current era where people just gt the kpop bug just coz it was near them. which has also a possibility like one of the comments i just read on omonatheydidnt tt kpop fans nowadays are vert fickle-minded. just no news on them and they can just drop their idols unlike a shinhwa fan who will stick by them no matter how long it takes for us to hear them again. 2012. im still waiting, hyung-nims! 

i dont knwo why. but the comment i saw earlier just made my eyes became blurry and it started to rain, as though my eyes had gloomy clouds gathering and it was just getting to heavy hence kinda had a short downpour.

but you know what. i can be fickle-minded. but.. shinhwa and shinee are just so locked in tt i dont know where i have place my key to it. cos im not a recent kpop lover and u gt tt right. im super proud to announce it. Goddamn it! *awe tt felt good!* 

P.s: producer Park Sang Joon,  i salute you and wish you all the best! and im so glad u are happy now. u have found your niche after wondering so long! Good for you!